My baby was colicky for the first 3 months of his life. So, while I loved him - desperately - it was hard to. I remember thinking during the 5th week, "Boy, it's been 5 weeks now, without a smile or a happy sound. Heck, I'd even be happy with a contented sigh! All he ever does is complain, and cry and fuss."
All of a sudden it hit me. I wondered if that's what God thinks when he looks down on me. All I ever do is complain, and cry, and fuss. I wonder if, like me, he yearns for a smile, a happy sound - or even a contented sigh! I realized how hard I must be to love.
I learned today that God IS love. It is an essential part of His "Godness". Love isn't just a wishy washy emotion for him, like it is for us. It's not even a decision - it's His being.
And boy am I glad.
Now my baby boy smiles all the time, and laughs a lot too. He even just recently started reaching for me. It makes my day. I love it! He is sooooooooo easy to love now. In fact, I can't help but love him.
It makes me want to smile, and laugh, and reach for my God. I want to be easy for Him to love.